I really need some help. I started cutting (using a knife) about three or four months ago because my dad told me he didn't think gays should exist, and because my mom said it's really wrong because she's ultra-christian, and i couldn't deal with it. And then after my friend saw, he helped me quit, so i stopped for about three or four months. And then when i told my parents I'm bi (I'm gay, i just told them that, because i thought they'd be more accepting) they started treating me like shit, bitching at me for no reason, my mom would yell at me everyday i came home from school (still does) and my dad would yell at me for every little mistake i made, big or small, it didn't matter, and then on top of that, the only people i have right now( my two best friends) started hooking up and now I'm here, I've started hurting myself again, or whatever you want to call it, but now i use a needle that they would use to give horses or cows a shot, it's sterile, but i feel the same thing, and don't have as big of scars as i did when i used a knife, but i need some help, the disappointment that i have with myself right now is unbearable, yet every night, i think about everything going on and i can't take it so i do it again and again, and still I'm disappointed with myself, and i want to stop, but can't tell my parents, and can't tell my friend that helped me last time because it wrecked our relationship, so i really need help, and someone to help me quit and how i can.
Post edited by: i03i98, at: 2007/08/25 16:05
Post edited by: i03i98, at: 2007/08/25 16:06
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Re:Help Me Stop!!
Date: 2007/08/25 18:10
By: mylife
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so am I understand this correctly.... You are cutting because your parents make you feel bad. (because you are gay)
You said that your mom was 'ultra' Christian--so I think that you won't be too upset if I say this- God and Jesus still love you... and will ALWAYS forgive you. try snaping a rubber band, instead of using a needle.. that might help. --Stephanie
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Re:Help Me Stop!!
Date: 2007/08/25 20:23
By: Jersey Mark
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Tell your parents you want to see a therapist to help you "overcome" being gay.
That's not really what you're going to see him/her for...that's just what you're going to tell your parents so they will let you see the therapist. Just listen and hear me out.
When you see the therapist, tell them that you've been hurting yourself because of how your parents treat you for being gay...if you want, ask your friend that helped you before along for help. Also, try this list from another site I used to be a moderator on...it's very useful for those who hurt themselves. It's not written by me but I know the guy who wrote it: http://forums.govteen.com/showthread.php?t=153338
When you overcome the self-harm, try this next thing...
You can also ask the therapist to try to talk to your parents and explain to them that THEY are wrong, not you. There aren't many homophobic therapists around anymore...therapists can't afford to be prejudiced in racial, sexual, or religious matters. I'm not saying all therapists accept gays, but most do.
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Re:Help Me Stop!!
Date: 2007/08/25 22:39
By: justicles
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Yep I've also been told to either Use a rubber band OR Just put Ice on it. Apparently it works really well. Give that a shot. Oh and try listening to some cheerful music, You'll be amazed how much that can make you feel.
All the best,
-Justin
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Re:Help Me Stop!!
Date: 2007/08/26 06:39
By: The Decadent Traveller
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Rise above them. Any parents that cause their children to feel suicidal are NOT parents.
Find yourself a boyfriend willing to give you the love and support that your family, through their own faults, seem incapable of.
NOTHING is worth hurting or killing yourself over. You are just taking up abusing yourself where others have left off.
If I were you I would say that 'religion turned me gay'. That you never had a gay thought before you went to church. Juts to spite them.
Sorry, I have an evil streak.
Or, if you like the pain, get into S&M. Lol!
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Re:Help Me Stop!!
Date: 2008/04/18 11:06
By: Steely Dan
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your parents are assholes you need to disasociate yourself from them. Spend as little time at home and as much time with your friends as possible. Also find people who will talk on msn when your friends can't be around. I think 99% of people on these forums would be more than happy to chat. You have to realise that there's nothing wrong with you, the fault is in your parents and their absurd beliefs are nonsense. Do you have a library or somewhere else where you can hang out when school's done? Oh and join band if they offer it at your school.
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Re:Help Me Stop!!
Date: 2008/04/19 21:41
By: memmer66
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Has a point on the music. I don't know what type you listen to but "I Can't Decide" by the Scissor Sisters has a really upbeat tune and has always made me smile and wanna dance.
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Re:Help Me Stop!!
Date: 2008/04/20 03:17
By: Jupetta
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About a year ago my mother was wanting to invade mine and my friends privacy decided to hack my old AOL email account and get into one of my former myspaces. Well... let's just say that she being the closed-minded Christian bitch that she is she didn't react well. My father is just an asshole to me because he thinks I am, not because he knows so. =/
If you need anybody to talk to about this feel free to message me, just know that you're not the only one to experience it before. There are others out there like myself who can empathize.
I apologize for anything your parents do or say. Occasionally I fall back into my old ways of cutting, but try talking to a friend to prevent yourself from doing so. It helps a lot believe me.
Good luck.
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