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I'm out, mostly, but what about everyone else?
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Date: 2009/08/19 17:50
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By: QueenOfdorks
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When I came out I was in the 6th grade, and that was the easiest thing ever. My mom was very excepting of me. But now, since I'm a Junior in High School I'm not really getting anywhere. I want to be known, I just don't know how to prepare myself for the worst.
A little situation I had at this school in my sophomore year will kind of explain why I don't want to come out and be known. I gave this girl (who had heterosexual written all over her) a note at school that explained that I liked her and not to take it personally. I told her this because I would understand if she wasn't attracted to girl. She was really nice when I handed it to her, she even asked me if I wanted to talk about it later. But, the next day after restless sleep, she didn't even look at me. And when I asked her something she quietly said, I don't know and rolled her eyes. Not too bad right? Well, I was paranoid and really wanted to know what in the hell she thought. From this day, she never talks about it. She never brings it up, but I have talked to her in normal conversations online and it seems like she forgot about it, although she does give me eerie looks from a distance, and glances, I look away first, it's almost like she is trying to see something in me when she looks at me. After this experience I just figure she's too immature to talk about it and is in to what people think about her, and , as I figured just plain and straight. I really can't figure her out, and I've been right on target with other girls I liked, they liked me. But not this one.
I still feel upset about her, I really liked her, she was hot and I can't get over it. And about coming it, I want people to know me for who I am and not what I am hiding. It's really hard to have anyone in high school be excepting of me, the real me. I feel like my maturity level is higher because of this. I really need some outlooks on this. If you have any questions about further details just ask me. thanks, I really need some outlooks.
Post edited by: QueenOfdorks, at: 2009/08/19 17:52
Post edited by: QueenOfdorks, at: 2009/08/19 17:54
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