Anyone know how to deal with them, other than the paper bag treatment? I have been having a lot and they scare the shit out of me, so Im just wondering how can I deal with them a bit better?

Unfortunately all the years of abuse about my weight, my face, my performance at football etc. has bottled over and combined with the troubles with my Dad who moved out but kept coming back to torment my mum and myself, me being gay (which I dont want to be), me being so lonely I cant face my mates when they're with their GF's, coming very close to anorexia and just generally feeling crap about myself.

Its pretty much made me snap and I cant face going to school at the moment, going out or doing anything. I sit in my bedroom thinking about what is the point in living, and contemplating something that only the love for my family and friends stops me doing. It started off somedays I was awrite then others I was shocking, now its the same all the time. Panic attacks, being sick from emotional pain and the migraines which I had before. I know it doesnt seem much I have to contend with compared to other people, but I have lost my strength to deal with it and cant cope.

Anyone got any advice about how to deal with myself at the moment and how to be happy, because my old next door neighbour had a similar situation and the panic attacks got too much. He ended jumping off Acrefair Aquaduct. Dont wanna follow him.