well my lifes been better all thort my world would be easyer when i came out to my family. What a wast of time that was iv got a brouther that hates me being gay and thinks all i do is wank my self infront of my web cam all day lol god i have a life. then i have got the gay coments, go wach your F%$#ing Gay Porn and take it to the gay bare all thow littel sayings. god he dosent know how bad he has hurt me, i fill like my life is faling apart cant talk to him cos he just thinks i do stuff infront of my computer all day.

Its nights like this i fill like jumping off a cliff and i meen that if only there where some close or maby find a nice busy rode and lay down and whait for a car to come along. i wish i knew how to acked but i dont knw im just sick of all the crap all i wont to be is a guy with a caring and loving boy freand who i can trust. to know what this thing called love is that i have jet to fill along my body.

im sorry if this has huirt you or scared u about coming out it wasnet ment to. ill keep going slowly till i can find mr right o well im off to bed i need my sleep got to do a burn off tomorro

i would say good night but ya its not a good night i will chat to u guys soon

tyler aka frosty

I suppose I'm afraid of the same thing happening. Although I can't give my advice from experience, I can tell you what I'd do. . .

Have you brought up your brother's behaviour with your parents? I understand that it can be tough dealing with him, so bring it up with somebody else! You shouldn't have to go thru this alone.

Try to get your mind off of him, too. Go hang out with friends, see a movie, get a boyfriend, whatever to pass the time. It'll help your self esteem out a bit.

You mentioned that you have a life. Well go live it! I know it's easier said than done, but for your own sake, you need help to get thru this.

thanks man well ya i do i go out does help a bit but still it does buld up insied so it was just my vent a bit i tell my parents qwite a bit but as the stuped bro does denies he is saying it or that he is just tring to help me. lol not relly helping bit jay we had a famil confences and sorted it all out hopfaly it will get better im not relly holding my breth thow thatnks for the reply thow. on the note of the boyfrend i am on the look for one there are just not a lot of em round this part of town lol that are out any ways

any way thanks againg

i sort of know whaty you're going through, ive come out to my parents but not my brother, but im sure he suspects something. he's always making the odd comment about 'dirty queers'. end of the day, its his problem, not yours, and besides, you're his brother and hopefully some day he'll realise that. out of interest, is he older or younger than you? mines about 18 months younger but has for some reason always seemed to think himself superior to me. and dont forget, if hes giving you a hard time, surely theres something you can give him a hard time about, if a;ll else fails

i sort of know whaty you're going through, ive come out to my parents but not my brother, but im sure he suspects something. he's always making the odd comment about 'dirty queers'. end of the day, its his problem, not yours, and besides, you're his brother and hopefully some day he'll realise that. out of interest, is he older or younger than you? mines about 18 months younger but has for some reason always seemed to think himself superior to me. and dont forget, if hes giving you a hard time, surely theres something you can give him a hard time about, if a;ll else fails

When I came out to one of my brothers, it was maybe one of the most weirdest times I ever felt around him, and I know he thought the same. Me and my brother have been pretty close growing up. We shared the same room up until my oldest brother moved out when I was 12 or 13, I knew that he had gay issues.

When I told him, he just went silent...finally saying "I'm not sure what I'm suppose to say to that." Then "You know how I feel about it, and I'm not going to stop making jokes about gay people." And he never stopped.

My oldest brother, as much as I hate not letting him know, doesn't know I'm gay as far as I'm aware. It wasn't so much my choice as it was my parents wishes that I never told him, just, not yet. My oldest brother is not to understanding. The last election, he wouldn't even vote for the party he liked because they added a new gay friendly policy. Anyways, I normally would say screw it and just tell him but....I fear that because I'm gay he will not allow me to see my niece. This is something that is very possible and I just don't want it to happen.

I realize thats sooner or later I do have to tell him. I'm just worried on the outcome. I don't want to lose my Niece.

Well- I'm very sorry, for both of you, very sad stories indeed. I guess I should share my own experiance to see if it could add any hope into the equation!

well, Ive always been called gay, puff, fag, by my brother sister, and dad. And even at school I got it, from year 5 at school, up to year 9-10. What can I say, I never had many male influences, so my manner is more of,mm, planned and acted then rather me, when im around people. I cant open up easily, and I tend to keep myself to myself, I had lots of friends, but i still just didnt show the real me. I guess, it wasnt till i accepted the fact that I was gay that it I relaxed with myself. And then, came the task of telling my best friend that i was gay, she wasnt surprised as I may of mentioned before.

As you see, at school, since i got called gay, I guess people had there reasons, mainly my manner, as Ive said, another is I think my own thoughts, and I dont stick my head up peoples ass, and I also will disagree with those "more popular" with you, - added to my amusement in the end-

ANYWAYS- back to the story!-
she of course said it was kinda obvious and she didnt mean, due to her step brother being gay and all. the next person was another close friend, hell, she didnt care either, she was thankfull I opened up to her. And then finally...

Parents!!
I told my mother first, she said she had always known deep down, and that she needed a large drink:o! betch, i know!! well carrying on, she slowly got over it, and now, i talk to her about guys i fancy, i talk to her about my thoughts and stuff. I did the worst thing anyone could do in a family of hate like mine.. I told my sister, she of course, at first, liked the idea but!! when i was getting the better of her at something, and people where around, she would raise the issue of me being gay up to try to embarress me as I were her! haha- didnt bother me

I come last to my brother and father, both, unfortunetly, closed minded bastards, thats sexest, homophobic, and racist. Well,In my opinion of course. I hate them so much, I guess it isnt the comments that cut deep, its the way they wait till they have an audiance, i have never admited it to them, and never intend to, for the simple fact that I dont class them as part of my family!

The benefits of telling my mother and close friends:

I felt relieved when I did!

I could talk to people about how I felt

I didn't have to keep my feelings bottled up

No more feeling alone

No more suicidal tendancies/self harming

You see, my point is, that even if you are scared of what might happen, there is always a possibility that something good could happen, with me, i was used to the names, the abuse as it were, it was a way of life early on and to cope i hurt myself to feel something. But, when i told my mam and close friends, i felt so releaved, it was like something heavy being shared with someone else, and i think if it wasnt for those people I dont think i could of coped with the secret much longer.

hope this has helpedsome how lol, if you descifer the message within the text!

well when I told my brother and his girlfriend I was Bi (slightly different I know) nthey were more accepting then I thourght and nothing has changed at all. But all Id say is if you want to tell him, or feel like he should know, tell him, either he accepts you and things get better for you, or he doesnt and then thats his problem for being closed minded, as long as your happy with who you are thats all that matters in my opinion