Anyone know how to deal with them, other than the paper bag treatment? I have been having a lot and they scare the shit out of me, so Im just wondering how can I deal with them a bit better?

Unfortunately all the years of abuse about my weight, my face, my performance at football etc. has bottled over and combined with the troubles with my Dad who moved out but kept coming back to torment my mum and myself, me being gay (which I dont want to be), me being so lonely I cant face my mates when they're with their GF's, coming very close to anorexia and just generally feeling crap about myself.

Its pretty much made me snap and I cant face going to school at the moment, going out or doing anything. I sit in my bedroom thinking about what is the point in living, and contemplating something that only the love for my family and friends stops me doing. It started off somedays I was awrite then others I was shocking, now its the same all the time. Panic attacks, being sick from emotional pain and the migraines which I had before. I know it doesnt seem much I have to contend with compared to other people, but I have lost my strength to deal with it and cant cope.

Anyone got any advice about how to deal with myself at the moment and how to be happy, because my old next door neighbour had a similar situation and the panic attacks got too much. He ended jumping off Acrefair Aquaduct. Dont wanna follow him.

sounds like you're having a pretty rough time

i dont know much about panic attacks- maybe its worth taking up some kind of relaxation technique such as meditation or yoga?

i can relate to a lot of the things you are saying- bullying, similar dad issues, general loneliness, wondering why the hell you're still alive..

you mentioned coming very close to anorexia? trust me; do not go there. if you think things are bad at the moment, its nothing compared to what it will come to- picture things as they are now, but with even less energy- and losing connection with friends and family because you're paranoid they are going to realise and try and fatten you up. you really dont want to go down that route.

if anyone knew a fool proof way how to be happy that applied to everyone, they would be a millionaire.

you dont just deal with yourself. everything about you has had however many years to build up and you cant just change it in a few hours. all you can do is deal with the specific things that are bothering you at each point in time.

if you ever need to talk, feel free to message me okay?

Wow, panic attacks causing death. Thats rough. Honestly, I deal with having panic attacks on a daily basis. Its not because of outside stresses(although they dont help) Its in my head. I am so sick in my head. Honestly, if your panic attacks are getting that bad you should ask yourself if its a physical manifestation of outside stress. First things first, dont jump off an aquaduct, thats just silly. because you can fix this. If you are experiencing this much emotional trauma I suggest you keep in mind that seeing a professional is always an option. Honestly, having doctors to help me cope with this has REALLY helped. But as far as stopping panic attacks before they start, you have to do your best to calm yourself down. Find a dark, quiet place in which you feel comfortable and just breathe. Im not sure if my way might work for you but I usually just force myself to cry, get it out of my system as fast as possible. And dont rely on drugs (both perscription and recreational) to solve your problems. There is no such thing as a miracle cure. I have been down that route and its not a pretty situation. Whats up being an alcoholic at the age of 15? Sitting in your room is very relaxing, I do it all the time, but you cant just become a shut in because that is more of a problem than a solution. You have to work all of your shit out really slowly.

Im sorry if my writing is all over the place, I just had a panic attack so I am a little....distressed to say the least.
If you want to talk to me further about it, dont hesitate to send me a message.

I know for some (me.. XD) sometimes it feels like you can't breath and your heart is beating 999999999/s. I know it's difficult, but just keep breathing slowly. NO, not overly long and deep. Then you'll just get dizzy from all the extra air and it doesn't work at all. Try breathing in 3 secounds, then hold your breath for 3, then breath out in 3 seconds, then hold your breath in 3 seconds, Then start over. It really helps, and the more you do it the faster it goes away.





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