This story makes me feel like I'm not alone, I'm so sorry that you went through that sort of stuff. My story is more of a subconcious battle, I hope to right a good story about MY coming out soon, but first I have to come out

It's great to hear that coming out payed off, I'm happy that you found someone you love. I have a boyfriend my self, but he lives all the way in Florida but I know our love is true. But I digress, congrats on everything I hope your life gets better before it gets worse.

PetahBread wrote:

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This story makes me feel like I'm not alone, I'm so sorry that you went through that sort of stuff. My story is more of a subconcious battle, I hope to right a good story about MY coming out soon, but first I have to come out :P

It's great to hear that coming out payed off, I'm happy that you found someone you love. I have a boyfriend my self, but he lives all the way in Florida :( but I know our love is true. But I digress, congrats on everything I hope your life gets better before it gets worse.

best of luck on coming out :]

Awe, Scott.

I'm glad that you're alright now. Eurgh.. A friend trying to convince you you're not gay? That's not a true friend. My friends accept me, and I recently came out to them. Your story helps. =]
I don't know about coming out to my famiy ; My mother's the Chinese traditionalist type, and my Dad just hates homosexuals. Pathetic, really..

Your story is inspiring, and I'm really glad you're okay now. :] Go ducky.

wow, all these responses! thanks guys :]

I agree it would make a great movie...oh wait, they don't make movies about gay people. Im serious. When was the last time there was a gay character on TV or in movies who was not just there so they could make gay jokes?

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I agree it would make a great movie...oh wait, they don't make movies about gay people. Im serious. When was the last time there was a gay character on TV or in movies who was not just there so they could make gay jokes?

I regret to burst your bubble but there are a number of gay movies, or at least ones that aren't as you are describing. I might suggest looking at "hedwig and the angry inch", "transamerica", "but I'm a cheerleader", and "camp" are a few that come to mind right away. They are sometimes harder to find but they are definetly out there.

Nice story.
Many gay ppl have or had this problem.. i'm not like the one that must say this omg im only 13 but for what i know its like many of the cases are like this, that no one accepts who he his, or is afraid of being it religion, family or stuff like that..
really good reading that

glad you wrote that

i cant beleave how close your story is to my story. Including the hitting myself, crying, and pleeding with god. you just have a different ending im still in and still a little confused on me being bi or gay. must be that self brain washing years ago.

omg I have chills cause u like jus described my whole life. Everything that happened to u happened to me. Its so wierd cause u like wrote my whole life down. And I too felt wierd when I was younger I would always think guys were cute. And like 7th grade was also a blur I almost commited suicide cause it was so bad and now I look back on that year and its like blocked out. I'm really sick of my skool I would do anything to get out my private Christian skool its horrible.