ok so i have a big problem with being paranoid im always cautious about things i lock my doors and windows every nite and i make sure the stove is off and all the heaters that heat my home! its really sad cuz i wake up to a cold house every morning but i do this like 3 times a nite or else i cant get a good night sleep! i even have a weapon near my bed if anyone wants to try and attack me while I'm sleeping......and after watching Final Fantasy it didnt get any better

I also have to check all the doors and windows are looked in my house before bed.

I keep a baseball bat next to my bed, one by the front door, and my mom has one by her bed an a 8 inch hunting knife.

I also cant sleep when I am alone because I have a fear that I will die in my sleep. I thank that I will stop breathing and there is know one to help me. It has happened before and I had to keep hitting my chest till I could breath again.

I never sleep well. I only have a friend that might stay over on the weekends. That is the best sleep I get all week because he is there to help or get help if I stop breathing. I stayed awake for four hours last night just laying in bed, I got two hours sleep before school and its almost like that every night.

wow! thats all i can say

i also dont like people behind me when i eat.

i always feel like i am being watched even when i am alown in a room.

i have a lot of paranoid thoughts but thoughs couple are the biggest.

i have one more big one but it is also dirty so ill leave that one out for now

well now you have to say it

ok the other is that when i masterbate some where other than my home and some times even there i thank that someone is watching. like if i stay at a friends house or some where else i usally go into the bath room to jerk off i have to cover all the air vents and windows.

I always thank there is a hidden camera some where watching me.

i dont care if someone see's watchs me do that but i would like to no they are.