My mom thinks I was going thru a faze when I had two girlfriends insted of two more boyfriends, I can't really discribe how I am so I know what you mean when you say you were confused.

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i know what you mean, i new i was different when i was very young too, i just told myself i was a freak and keept it a secret. But now was i am about to turn 16, i have become aware that im not a freak!. Im just gay. i had surfed the web, and found support sites and i felt a peace.  
 
Like you i told my parents, they told me that i am too young to know, and i had to never tell anyone about my feelings because they feared what others would do to them, how they would look at them. How the family would see it. They told me that my younger brother would get beatn up, by other students because i was gay.  
 
So all i can do now is wait. and secretly post !!

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Well, what i can say is you chose the wrong time to disclose your sexual orientation. As you have already stated, you have no job, no money , no nothing to keep yourself alive, you're still dependent on your family/parents' support. I will be going to an English University in just a few months' time and that\'ll cost a fortune to my parents and needless to say, i can\'t even pay a hundredth of the tuition fee if my father's not going to pay for me. Learn the virtue of patience, my dear. It might sound mean to you but since this society/your family is going to be so cruel to your sexual orientation, why shouldn't we do the same too? My father's found the porn that i saved in the computer and i did exactly what you chose to do, i decided to live in a lie-a lie that will make my father think'' oh, he's going to correct himself and after all, he's just confused at that young age. It's hard but sometimes a few homo-tolerant friends will be of great help.

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its like we live the same fate my parents are extremely religious and have always tried to instill it in my head that homosexuality was wrong and they still do . i know while im here i will have to obey them so i feel your pain i hope one day kids like us will find somwhere to go to be accepted

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Awww that is os sad that ur dad's making you be straight, you should be able to be accepted if your straight or gay. thats just mean on your dads part to kick you out if you were gay.

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"and told them the sad news" .....NO! not sad news, i know it sounds cliche but your parents don't love you when they don't even know you when you come out they can finally begin to love the real you. i know it may seem bad at first but trust me they'll come around

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When I was little I used to carry a pink Barbie lunchbox to school. I was too young to know it was a weird thing for a boy to do and I think all the adults thought that it was cute so I had no idea. 
 
Ah memories

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lol 
im a grl and i used to love to play with toy cars and liked to sit at the boy's table and i always wanted to be the dad when we were playing house. but i still liked barbies. wow it's amazing that u can sumtimes tell ur sexuality by what toys u played with when u were little. lol im bi

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Almost all of what you said described me...I am 16 and I came out to my closest friends about 3 months ago...all of them minus a few...took it really well...then I decided that everyone needed to kno so I set my facebook and myspace status to gay and interested in men...then I wrote the "coming out" note on facebook...thats when ppl started to comment me asking if it was true and what not...most ppl took it well...then my bro noticed that was dating a guy that was 19...he told my 'rents...and they freaked...after me and him broke it off they were okay with it.....the part about you liking barbies and dressing up in moms clothing is exactly what I did...I also grew up having ALL girls as friends and playing house and "girl" games on the playground...I have alwaysk known I was gay but was terrified to say nething for fear of total rejection and because I knew my school was VERY judgemental...but just this year after I told my friends, I got a lot of support...I hope everything works out well for you and that your dad finally gets his head our of his a**!

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hey im with u all the way i was the exact same way ever since i was little just like u i liked playing with barbies and waring my sisters clothing and now at the age of 13 im still afrad of telling my mom and all the other people in my life and same thing with u i just thought of my self as diffrent i gess me and u r allmost the same well ttyl

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I'm really saddened to hear that in this day and age some parents find the idea there children might be gay as being unacceptable. I'm a parent of a 7 year old boy who has touched me with his ability to tell me he is gay. I'm proud that he feels confident enough to know that I won't reject him and that I will support and love him regardless.

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Seriously, what's wrong with these parents? What is so difficult about accepting and loving their children? Something has to change, and this ignorance has to be stopped. We need some real education about homosexuality in this world. I'm sorry about your situation. It will make you stronger in the long-run. Thanks for sharing.

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awwwww thats so sad its like that for me to but my mom knows but i dont want to tell my dad cause he's homofobic and im scared of what he'l say to me

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im attracted to women! i love children, one day, i want to be married.. BUT at the moment, i see myself being attracted to guys.. and i know i still like women, but this is difficult, because i was told by people in school, many people -- i was gay, and then i denied it, constantly because i knew what i wanted in life.. so after years of saying im not, and now im attracted to both sexes, im very confused.. 
 
i cannot tell people im bi-sexual because i want the easy way out.. i want a wife, i want kids, telling people i have experienced same sex involvment, in my mind, ruins all.. which i shouldnt think that way, but its hard not too.. everyone i know is homophobic, and it get worse that i only just realised my curiousity after everyones else, once they finally believe me, i realise! it\'s rediculous. 
 
everyone i know, does not like gay people.. and the people that don\'t care if your gay or not, will give me the \'\'i knew it speech\'\' from 6 years ago, even thought now they think im completely straight.. 
 
i hope this all makes sense to u all!

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OMG!!! That has to be the saddest story I have ever read... . Honestly I feel for you, because I am afraid of what my parents will say, so I haven't even told them yet...

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I know how u feel, i havent come out yet but i know my parents would be sooo disapointed if they found out i was gay, they keep asking about me having a girlfriend and all i want is a boyfriend x

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i know how it felt...i tried to coming out a year ago and my parents freaked up,and then deny it, so i have to pretend im straight to have a place to live..hope one day my parents can understand that being gay doesnt been girly dressed but just have feeling for a man

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i know exactly how u feel. my mom is the same.

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Same thing really, But I havnt come out

I still havnt come out as i am still unsure of what I am for now. 
I was into all that barbie idea and wearing girls clothes. 
I even wore a baby blue snow white dress to my aunties birthday party, which now i feel embarrassed at. My sister has a boyfriend who i think is really nice - He is like a really kind person and I like him as a person.  
I still do wear a bit of girls clothing now and them for a laugh - but i do love extensions x :D Haha. Yes. anyway, Thanks for sharing your story and I hope your dad finally understands who and what you are and you just be who you want to be - When you come old and begin to die - He will started to regret what he said - Thats if you die before him, No harsh feelings.

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your not alone

hi, that is realy sad, i hate it wen ppl are forsed to live lives that are untrue. i realy admire your for coming out and hope that you can 1 dae move out and realy be free. both my perents are against gays and usualy force me 2 act str8. its not their fault, they dont know im gay and im scared they wil kill me (not littraly ) anyway, i hope things will get better for you and just remember that you have friends here and we will saport u. even if they dont

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aww

thats sad but alot of it was same wit me. Lik since i was young i would alwyas get aroused when i saw hot guys. But i only realized i was gay when i was 12. I kinda started 2 reject it n lik pretend it wasnt true bu eventually i accepted it. N yea my mom found out cuz i was on porn n seh was soo pissed she gave me this huge lecture. That was 2 years ago and we have neva talked about me being gay again. on the lus side i told 2 frineds last week n they were so cool about it

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It takes bravery..

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It takes bravery..

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It takes bravery..

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im sorry

alo im jay and the same thing happend to me i didnt no i was gay until me best mate made a move on me i didnt want to tell eny one so we lived the lie one day i was lookin at gay porn on the copmutor and my step dad walked in i swiched the pc of and went up stares he thoght i was on sumthing i shouldnt of been so e checked the histroy he then found out the truth of me i was so upset i ran away to my freinds house after a long 3 hour phone call and tears and tantrums we they finally accepted me for who i am they will soon understand and accept u in the end just try ur hardest drop hints they will soon accept u

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That's Completely understandable!

I'm only 15 and I'm also living the lie of being straight, but I haven't come out to anybody yet, to tell you the truth I probably never will. I just think it all depends on the situation of your life is what makes everything happen the way it does. Just afraid of how the people around me will reject me and treat me like an outcast, because I"m alot more than just gay let me tell you that much. I'm a pretty messed up person really (not proud).

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That's Completely understandable!

apparently four times as many ppl who are gay or bi commit or think about suicide, purely because they feel alone, just wanted to point this out it's sad really but it happens, it's gonna be difficult because of the problems finding other people and having someone to talk to

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:D

i think you are at the right place to find friends that have the same problems, i didn't start to open up to my friends untill i got online and found some people like me... rememeber that you are not alone  
 
-cody

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wow ur story has touched me, i admit wen i was 10 i knew dat i was gay, my mum is fine with it but my dad hates me for it. confusion is da biggest emotion i always go through. as i was readin ur story i felt a connection and understandin, good luck for da future if u eva wanna chat pm me n i will get back, 
 
salsa xxx

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Ouch

Hope it all works out for ya mate

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im sorry

[B]im very sorry[/B] about that and i think that being gay is an amazing thing and that u have an amazing story that touched me and i agree with u in your confusion, im only 14 but im struggling with the fact that im gay also. i wish the world knew how being gay wasnt wrong at all. every1 is =. i enjoyed your story alot and hope we can get to know eachother. your friend, Greg

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wow

wow u know that was something that just made me go wow. i mean that was a great story but like wow.

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i feel for u

me and u should talk, u seem preety nice, and i understand how u feel. i use to think my parents where homophobic, we both have different problems relating to the gayness, and i am only bi, i still love this girl, but dnt lyk ne other girls, only guys

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