losing my mind!! 
everything i wouldve said, you just said it for me. 
 
ever since i was in like sixth grade people have thought i was, getting harassed and "bullied" is completely the norm for me. and ive spent all my energy into defending myself and denying everything. ive known for maybe 2 or 3 years that i was.. something? im not sure yet as to bi or gay. but its just the fact that i didnt want to prove all those idiots right, that kept me lying about everything. 
 
im in a really small town. i could count the number of out gay people on one hand. and im neither close, friends, or on a conversation-basis with any of them. 
but i feel like i cant figure myself out until i actually experience they sexual act of being gay. 
i wish i could just put it off until i move, go to college or something.. 
but thats still 4 more years. and its killing me inside.  
 
i really just want someone to understand and accept and... love me? hah

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