the thing is most people around you that see that you had hurt yourself for relief of the pain some of us go through every day, dont understand what goes on in our heads. i knew it was not acually right and i knew that it was something that i shouldnt have done. but i did it anyways. and no one understood that. they say it hypocritical. and they think im less of a person than i was before but im not. and even when i told my problem to the face of the problem. she didnt listen all she did is put me down and hurt me more. and because of not being able to hurt myself anymore just causes more pain. because the fear of losing what little i have to hang on to is unbearable. and i hope the reader of this understands. and doesnt do what everyone else did to me.

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