#5,

Myth number 5 in so present in my life. My parents have forbidden me to tell anyone that I am gay. It hurts; they are basically telling me that they are ashamed of me. They don't want me to tell my cousins, grandparents, aunts, uncles, family friends at all. Here is what really hurts: my mom blabs it to who she sees fit but I can't. Sometimes it makes me want to just lie down and die. They don't understand how hard it is to hide such a big part of you. In essence, they don't love me enough to let me be honestly me. 
 
BUT (now that my sob story is over ) after reading this article I have learned that I am enabling them. I CAN and WILL put my foot down on this issue. I am me, no getting around it. It is MY sexuality, not THEIRS. This is up to me to make it right. I learned that I just need to be honestly me, simply put. 
 
I guess I am a little internal homophobic. I think alot of young gay people are. Not everyone, but alot. We are a minority that is put down beyond words. Sometimes we act just as stupid and mean as straight people can when we are scared. When I call myself a queer or queen or fag in front of them, I am joking to cover up how nervous I am of what they think of me. What are we scared of? I am scared of hate. Hate from my family. But, you know what? I can make it better, like I said before. WE all can make it better. Who are we to just sit back and let the world go by with all this homophobia crap in it? We are all equals. It is time I, and all young GLBT people, stand up and say, "hey, I am here too. I am proud. I am equal to you." 
 

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